Turning 55

Today was my birthday. I was doing fine. I felt really good. Took some selfies and posted them on social media to remember what I looked like when I turned 55 years old. All day was nice. But now it’s night time, everybody is asleep, and I am left with all my thoughts. I don’t know why they creep up on me. And I cry sometimes! A friend of mine told me she goes through the same thing.

I got up by hubby hugging me and saying Happy Birthday! It’s Sunday so I’m always looking forward to going to worship my Lord. It took me longer than usual to get ready. I wanted to look good because you know, it’s my birthday! So I took a shower, brushed my teeth, crimped my hair, put on makeup and got dressed.

When Angelika saw me she said whoa you look like a lion. I took it as a compliment. But then no one else paid me a compliment. I don’t know why that bothers me now. It didn’t bother me during those moments. Just now that I’m left with my thoughts.

So that triggered other stuff like nobody cares, I’m not important, I’m not attractive to my husband. I asked him did I look good today? Yes you did honey. I told you that. No you didn’t say anything. Then he said oh I said it in the car. To who? To yourself? That kind of just went above his head and he didn’t answer it. But he went on to say that he said wow she looks foxy especially with her frizzy hair.

What I remember and what I felt was that he didn’t give me a second look and I felt like he didn’t care and that I’m not attractive to him.

I still feel a bit down about it. But I’m going to read my Bible after this and see how it makes me feel and try to find some encouragement which I know is in there.

One passage comes to mind:

Psalm 139.13-18 “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of the sand – when I awake, I am still with you.”

Now I feel better! God is so good! He has words for any feeling you might have and it’s always encouraging!

Thank you Father! ❤ Praise your holy name! ❤

Now let me encourage you. Everyone receives blessings from God but in order to receive the spiritual blessings one must obey the Gospel.

Here’s the link:

https://lifeandliftedhands.com/category/the-plan-of-salvation-the-gospel-of-jesus/

Won’t you go to Him today and let Him abide with you?

He is worth it.

You are SO worthy.

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THANKS FOR VISITING!