Sometimes You Just Need to Reset

Well, I started this blog to share the gospel and also with the goal of reading the Bible from cover to cover, chronologically. I have not been posting about any of it lately. I had a really big setback and distractions left and right. I’m now listening to a book called, Claim Your Power, by: Mastin Kipp. He calls distractions a sign of trauma. Eeesh! I’m supposed to be doing the work while reading the book but since I bought it on Audible, I get to listen to it and I bought it that way for that exact purpose only to find that I’m supposed to do the work. Oh well…so I decided to listen to it all the way through until I finish it then start reading it again and do the work. But back to the purpose of this blog…

Just to clear the air, I HAVE BEEN READING THE BIBLE DAILY! In fact, I’ve read through Genesis, Job, 1 Chronicles (some), Exodus, Numbers (some) Leviticus, and Numbers (some): 6 times, Acts: 1 time, and the book of Romans: 9 or 10 times, besides other random studies on topics of interest like prayer, getting focused, Psalm 23 and many others. I just haven’t posted my thoughts on it. I study with other people 3 times a week with one of those days being a back to back study. I’ve also been listening to podcasts and listening to Christian music. So I’ve been doing the work but just not sharing. I’ve actually enjoyed not sharing, sorry! By that I mean that it’s given me lots of “me” time which brought me back to the peace that I always crave.

I was seeking answers from several people regarding making money through Network Marketing but I felt that it’s wrong. The reason in my head is because if you have a goal it’s supposed to consume you and you need to go after it with all your heart. Well if that’s the case, where does God stand? Aren’t I supposed to be going after him? The bible teaches that if you feel that something is sin, then it is sin for you. So I was getting confused and overthinking everything. I’m afraid of success because I don’t know what it will do to me. Again the bible teaches that people who run after money have lost themselves:

^” But those who chase riches are constantly falling into temptation and snares. They are regularly caught by their own stupid and harmful desires, dragged down and pulled under into ruin and destruction. For the love of money—and what it can buy—is the root of all sorts of evil. Some already have wandered away from the true faith because they craved what it had to offer”. 1 Timothy 6.9-10

Here were some good answers though: “Go for it!”, “If you’re seeking answers it shows that your heart is in the right place”, “Just do both”, “If you have God by your side you can’t go wrong”. I don’t know but none of these answers sat right with me even though they were good.

I know everyone was trying to help me but I found that the only one who really knows the answer is me. So I’ve been praying about it and seeking answers within myself and from God. I found that I actually know who I am and I know what I want! God had been trying to tell me but I wasn’t listening. When I realized it, it was such a freeing feeling! I also know, and was finally able to admit to myself, instead of fight it, that I HATE NETWORK MARKETING! It is definitely not my passion! And I’ve been letting people “should” on me for too long! I realized that: I. Just. Want. To. Blog. Or vlog. Oh by the way, I have a Youtube channel, not under my blog name, just under my name. There’s some silly posts there. I tried to make it be a family thing about homeschooling but that’s not my passion either. At least not like it used to be. Of course we still homeschool and we’re very involved but it’s not something I want to constantly talk about or be available to answer questions all the time… We homeschooled and have one more left to graduate. We did the work and I did my research so if you need advise about that honestly, just go look it up for yourself. You are the only one who knows your kids so you are the only one who knows what’s best for them. I think asking for advise on certain things can cause confusion. That’s how it was for me.

So I found that since I have already lived half of my life, all I want to do is live the rest of it pursuing God and godly things. If God wants me to be rich and famous then he’ll make me rich and famous. I don’t need to run after it. I’ve just been so afraid of missing out that I overwhelmed my own self. But I don’t need to worry anymore because what’s for me will always be mine. God’s will always prevails. No matter how hard you try. No matter if you don’t try. God’s will is God’s will and it will always win. The biggest thing I fear is missing out on heaven. I want to make it there! So I’m gonna grow that. I’m gonna work as if I will win first prize like Paul says in:

Philippians 3.14 – “I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.” And also,

1 Corinthians 9:24
“Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one receives the prize? Run in such a way as to take the prize.”

So this is a restart of my endeavor of pursuing the Lord Jesus Christ, and sharing all that I learn along the way. Come with me if you want, but if you don’t I’ll just keep going!

And since this is a blog to also share the Gospel, you can read it here:

The Plan of Salvation

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THANKS FOR VISITING!